Long story short, because of how much I was made to be afraid of sex before I was way to young to even know what sex was, I literally had no sexual attraction in my teens and I never even masturbated until I was 24, which of course I felt absolutely terrible about and wasn’t even intentional. Not only was I a kid who closed his eyes when people kissed in movies (which very few kids actually do), I closed my eyes when we walked past the women’s underwear in Walmart. You know how fucked up and afraid of sexuality a four year old had to be to be afraid of some fucking fabric? No wonder I’m still single and a virgin and scared of sex at 28. From my earliest memories my mom made me feel ashamed of having any kind of sexual attraction before I even knew what sex was. I know a lot of women have been raised this way, but I can find very little resources about male sexual shame because of religion. All my searches on google find resources for religious sexual shame for women, or sexual shame for men who have been abused (which of course are both valid, but not my situation)