I'm currently in college, so I realize I still have many, many years to explore religion and faith. I've already been kind of exploring other religions these past few years anyhow by going to different services. I'm not desperate to call myself any particular label, but I just yearn for a place to belong and not feel guilty. Catholicism has been such a big part of my life up until this point, so I don't want to just cut off faith and community abruptly. Plus, I'm dating someone who considers himself non-denominational, and we've both expressed that we want to be better about implementing faith into our lives.

What I love most about the Church's teachings is the focus on love (at least, that's how I interpret it). I've always felt that the Church focuses more on a relationship with God than strictly Jesus, which is what I've sensed in a lot of Christian faiths. In the Catholic Church, I've felt like less of the focus was on "spreading the word", salvation through grace alone, and trying to convert others to the church and more about acts of charity/kindness and expressing love. This is a small detail, but I've always loved the more traditional singing, too. I've gone to Christian services where the music felt more like concerts I've been to, and I just couldn't sense the connection that I have when singing Psalms.

And yet, here I am. I cannot bring myself to agree with the Church's views on abortion, homosexuality, contraception, and even the Commandment of honoring one's parents (no exception for abusive parents...?). I feel like a lot of these views are deep-rooted in anti-feminism and condemning anyone who doesn't fit the idea of a nuclear family. They don't take into account exceptions. If they were even a little more lenient on views - like allowing abortions and contraception for medical reasons, recognizing LGBT marriages, and making an exception for abusive parents for that Commandment, then I could see myself staying in the Church. But alas; I cannot sit there in the pews every Sunday enjoying the service while also simultaneously disagreeing with major moral stances. I feel like a hypocrite, and I feel endlessly guilty.

What place do I have in the world? Am I alone in feeling this way? Does anyone have any suggestions for denominations/other religions they've found that have comparable focuses on charity/justice/love? Should I just turn my faith inwards and avoid going to church but just continue practicing charity and love on my own? I would appreciate any input, whether a comment or PM. Thank you so much.