I want some input and see if you’ve all similar experiences. I’ve been diagnosed with religious OCD after a year long return to the RCC. Im out now and been out for around 5 months. I am still suffering the OCD. Terrified of hell etc. And Ive noticed Ive been way hornier for the past 3 months after I got out.

During my time in the RCC I tried not masturbating and that really accelerated my deconversion. I tried for one month and gave up when driving I started suicidally ideating. And after 2 months after that I literally was so horny I couldnt even function at work.

Now Im realizing the toxic relationship depression, OCD, and masturbation have with this stupid dogma. Masturbation gives you a hit of serotonin that you cant get elsewhere, and when youre scrupulous your life is a living hell not worth living and the self hatred of masturbation makes it even WORSE. Its like the 3 feed off each other. Religion leads to OCD, which causes depression, which causes masturbation which causes religious rituals that reinforce the guilt.

Unless you have other things in your life giving you the serotonin the depression OCD religion spiral is impossible to escape.

Ive also read PTSD sufferers experience hyper-sexuality due to fear causing their brains going into fight or flight mode and thinking “I GOTTA REPRODUCE IM GONNA DIE”. All the apocalypse and hell stuff could trigger this response as well