After years of developing OCD and scrupulosity, trying to connect dots and finding meaning in religion, my last straw was when a sickly coincidence happened that a supernatural being has planned for me to become a priest. I felt like God was going to give me a sign and to listen to what the priest would say, and during the sermon, he brought up the lack of priests and how we should all join priesthood.

That was the last straw, I looked back in my life from all my suffering and I realized that this religion has taken a lot from me, especially my mental health. All the years of following signs and looking for meaning in coincidences. I effectively became an atheist, but I still struggle as the psychological impact of this religion really embeds itself and latches onto your brain, now I see religion for what it is, a takeaway for developing mental illness.