I come in the door quietly and hang up my jacket with heavy arms; I neatly put my shoes away…..then it hits me, I am inside and I can let it out. I start to cry, I can’t hold it in anymore, not even one more second.

I had made it all the way to my truck, held it in for the entire drive home, even when fumbling for my keys.

I stand by the door and just cry, not able to move, just cry. My feet are stuck to the floor and I am frozen in place. I consider sinking to the floor and giving in until I hear your voice….calling my name from the bedroom….

Your voice is what allows me to finally move. I walk quickly but quietly towards you, almost on tip toe.

When I see you I know that I am home and I let out my cry even more, seeing your familiar loving face. You reach out your arms and I climb up onto the tall bed and over to your side. You put one arm out to wrap around me and use the other to guide my head to your chest and you hug me tight. My body fits perfectly against yours.

I cry harder and you just let me; you hold on to me tight. You know I can’t talk just yet and that I have been holding it in so long.

I feel you pet my hair and I begin to hear your heart beat over my sobs. You gently calm me, patiently comforting me and let me cry it all out. With each light touch of your fingers I am soothed. I listen to your heartbeat and I am soothed. I feel your chest rise and fall and I am soothed.

I have been going through so much and it has been so hard on me but you sooth me. Your familiar smell soothes me.

I finally hear your voice telling me it is going to be okay, everything is going to be okay baby girl. Your fingers feel the tears on my cheeks and you lean to kiss them.

I feel your soft lips on my cheek and all of the grief and loss and sad goes away. Your presence is so much bigger than any of that awful, heavy load I’ve been carrying for far too long.

I am lost in your pillowy lips and your arms surround me. You move me gently onto my back and I feel your body all over and around me. Your kisses continue and you cover every part of my face with little pecks that quicken until you start on my neck and I can’t help but let out a little giggle.

You look into my eyes that get so bright when I cry and say “there you are, baby”.

I smile a little; I look back into you eyes until I feel you lower your lips to mine again and I close my eyes. I feel your perfect kiss and even though my eyes are closed I can picture every part of your body vividly in my mind. I can vividly picture every sensation you give me.

I feel your hand glide smoothly up my leg and over my thigh, you curve your hand over my hip and up my side, you graze lightly over my breast to my shoulder where you grasp the sleeve of my dress and pull it down just enough to kiss my shoulder…..my clavicle…..

My breath hitches and I grab your face, kissing you back so passionately, it is quite clear I want to feel all of you. I want you so badly, I want to feel you as close as any two beings can get.

One of your hands cradles my head and never stops. Your other hand has swiftly moved up my dress and is peeling off my panties so fast and quickly they are tossed on the floor. Your pants are pulled down and shimmied off just as fast.

Your body fits tightly against mine and my legs naturally move upward and hug around your back…then I feel your pressure…..I feel your lips kissing mine, I smell your breath and I feel your cock gliding into me until you are resting so deep inside.

I take a moment to burn this feeling into my memory and into my heart. You wrap both arms above my head and begin to move inside me, watching carefully over my face. There are still quiet tears but you know they are for you and the comfort you provide me so easily.

You move faster and I just try to breathe and stay present. This feeling is perfect and this is home for me. I feel one of your hands reach down and hold my ass as you fuck me faster.

You kiss me and my head tilts backward as I cum feeling the pressure build deep inside of me. My hands squeeze your arm and your shoulder from the back. I feel so close to you and can tell you are close…

Close enough that I can draw out my orgasm and cum again with you. I feel it build as I feel you quicken, your thrusts filled with purpose and urgency.

The pressure increases and I cum again as I feel you throb so deep inside of me. I hear you and then notice my own voice that I couldn’t hear before. I was lost in you and that gives me comfort and provides spaces between the sometimes cruel world and us.

I feel you throb still as you catch your own breath and I try to comfort you by teasing my fingers through your hair and tracing my fingers over your skin.

You roll onto your back and gently pull me back into you, all in one move. My head is back on your chest and I still smell you but also me on you. You hold my head and pet my hair while I let my fingers explore your skin as far as I can reach and listen to your heart.

I fall asleep to the sound of your heart and feel like I am home.