Hello! I'm sorry if something similar has been posted before; I'm just looking to hear some experiences and hopefully get some advice.

I only got into smoking weed about 4-5 months ago, and I'm still in the experimental phase of learning what my perfect dose/method is. I usually use it when I want to relax, have fun, connect with myself, or for it to help me focus on doing things like cooking, doing chores, etc.. Somehow someway (probably from judgement from roommate/overall cultural stigma), I have now been feeling bad about my weed use. I feel like a bum, and like I should be able to feel better/more productive 'on my own'. Sometimes, it's not even those things, I just feel generally bad or like I'm doing something wrong. Recently, I've had a few bad experiences where I've smoked and its led to me being really anxious (to be fair, I've also been going through a phase of life where my anxiety is heightened - weed or not), which doesn't help either. For context, I come from a very religious and strict family. I try to list the benefits and remind myself how weed helps me, but sometimes the guilt is just a little too strong.

If you've been smoking for a while, have you gone through phases like these? What have you found helps you? I really want to be able to get back to when I would take a couple hits and be able to soak up feeling good, worry-free. Thank you wives <3