I could really use the perspective of some more exprienced ents.

I started smoking in July of this year to deal with stress on a fellowship and continued after it ended because I had some big work uncertainty and just really needed something to calm me down for a couple weeks until I landed something new. And then that passed and I just kept smoking daily. Then I switched to a dry herb vape. Now I partake every day, but only after work/in the evenings. Probably around .25g a day. (1-3 bowls of my dynavap which says it holds .1g but I don't fill it all the way)

Now I grew up in a house where we weren't even allowed to take an ibuprofen for a headache in case it turned us kids into drug addicts. I know that's not really a thing but growing up I got the "are you sure you really need that? You don't want to be dependent, do you?" Lecture every time I went to the medicine cabinet for anything. It had an inpact.

Now I'm struggling with intense guilt. I like my dynavap and partaking and I mostly do it for fun now. Sometimes I go to vape and I start to put it back because I don't "need" it, but then I pull everything back out because it's fun.

But like, how do I know where the line is? I've asked my irl friends but they all regularly partake and just kinda look at me like I have two heads for being worried at all. Maybe it is silly but like, how do I know I'm doing something okay? How do I know I'm just a casual user and not Having A Problem?