So, this just happened a few days ago. Any of you who already read my other posts will probably have to agree with me in saying that obviously I need to scare her anew...or at least remind her what happens when she wants to be entitled. So a few days ago it was my birthday and my mom, true to her new character, threw a surprise party for me...even going so far as to buy tickets for a movie that had just come out and tickets to the zoo and a few other things. I did have the thought "where did she get the money" but I pushed it out of my thoughts cause I had just finished a particularly long and hard semester of college while dealing with my decline in health (the main cause for my job loss in the previous post, hopefully only temporary though...hence me still going to college) If you want more info on that, I'll put it at the end. Anyway, I foolishly thought huh, she caringly put together a great day to help me keep upbeat about it all...If only.

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A week or so goes by when I get a message saying she put all that together as she overheard me saying to my roommate that I was going to do all those things once I got my disability funds the next month. She wanted to speed up those plans and that she will accept repayment next month once I receive my check...Instead of shock or disgust my only reaction was, oh yeah...this is my mom we are talking about, of course there's a plan going on in the back of her head (She wanted me to pay for not just myself, which would have been odd but acceptable, but also everyone else that went since she told everyone they didn't need to pay) I told her, Oh well, guess you shoulda checked if that was OK with me...Thanks for the party. She waited an hour or so to ask if that meant I was thinking about paying her back....I haven't dignified that with a response yet...

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So I spent my last 4 years at that job having random aches and pains and getting checked out by doctor after doctor with no explanation. Did every test imaginable, when my eye doctor, of all people, saw something in my eyes and said, you need a MRI. I got one the next day (Was basically forced into calling it in before he'd let me leave his office...he's awesome for doing that BTW) found nothing except that my CF pressure seemed high, which usually is when you have a brain tumor, but no brain tumor. They officially diagnosed me with Pseudotumor Cerebri (basically my body thinks and acts as if I have a tumor, but there is no tumor). 60% or so people just stop having symptoms suddenly, the rest have it for life. Other than that, they know almost nothing about it (What causes it, how to treat it, ect.) When I get an attack, usually the worst possible migraine (Since my brain is literally being squeezed by the pressure) I have to just sit through it and wait for it to pass. I lasted another year at the job before I was basically gone more than I was at work, they had no choice but to let me go with the promise to rehire should things improve. So in the mean time, I'm going to online college as I can set my hours so I can go when its a good day, and put it off when I have bad days. But it sucks, since even most doctors think I made it up since I have nothing to show I'm in pain or have a reason to be in pain, some have even called me a liar. I only took the disability cause I had no other options. I fought as long as I could to be self-sufficient, so when my mom (another story) or anyone else says I faked it to get money (which is a pittance compared to how much I used to make, and I enjoyed my job) I wanna slug 'em, but I'm still a pacifist. So far, only my Dad and my current roommate believe its not fake (Since he's seen the closet full of medical tests I got in that first single year, and he's dropped me off for my day long appointment with my specialist to run more tests every 6 months) Anyway, enough ranting about my medical crap, I got it...it'll go away one day on its own, till then, I have it...Nothing anyone can do about it.

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Edit: had to fix those pesky spelling errors, lol.

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Edit2: thanks for the silver! Just posting for my enjoyment...and possibly my therapy, lol.