Hey all.

I'm heather. I'm 32 I'm a transfem enby in the UK for context.

I have a doctor's appointment on Monday, where I'm finally going to get the NHS ball rolling on my medical transition.

Only I'm terrified. I look at the state of the world for us right now, in the UK and abroad and I just feel anxiety swell. I have a family, a loving while who is supportive, and I just feel so much anxiety.

What if I hate it? What if she does? What if I go down this path and things get so much worse and I end up with regrets? What if she leaves me and I'm left alone no house and trying to find funds to transition?

I know tomorrow will be just referrals and, maybe a few questions but, it feels like crossing the Rubicon. I'm so so anxious at the thought of it all.

Any help from you all would be appreciated either it's advice or just some steadying words. I've never been so close to being me, and yet I've never felt that seeing her is so unobtainable.

Thanks for reading my mind dump for those who get here, and I'm sorry for the stream of consciousness.