Dad was out with coworkers (he did say where he'd be just not how long it would take), he came home just before 1 AM and now my mom is furious and telling him she wants a divorce. Right before he came home she was trying to ask me for advice on where she should live once she moves out... They've always had a crappy relationship but it's actually been pretty good the past few years. But even back in the days when they were constantly fighting my mom never suggested divorce which makes me think maybe she's being serious and not just saying it in the heat of the moment. I don't even know which of them is in the wrong here, I feel like my dad didn't do anything wrong in this situation because he told us where he would be and with whom and it's not like this is a regular occurrence (it used to happen oftenish a few years ago but not even once since).

I don't know if this is serious or just a regular fight and they'll get over it, and new year's eve is coming which means assuming they don't completely break up it will just be awful with the three of us going through the motions of celebrating while they make passive aggressive remarks at each other and I'm stuck in the middle.

AND I don't exactly have my own room, since my room also serves as a living room where we eat and watch TV (it sounds weird but it works) which means even tomorrow I'll have to endure their arguments without having anywhere to escape.

Sorry I had to get all that off my chest. For reference I have really bad anxiety so maybe this rant came off like I'm being childish, I'm actually an adult. I'm here for the holidays for the next few weeks but I actually live abroad. I was really excited to be home and now I just wish I hadn't come. I feel like everything is awful right now and my family might break apart. Yes, I'm an adult but I'm really close to them and tbh I don't have much else.