Hey guys, i rarely post on any site much less on reddit, but here i am! I just need someone to hear me out something. Around late 2022, i met a girl we went out like no expectations, i kinda got like 1h late, we still went and had dinner we just cliked. For the following months we went on dates and stuff like that, like a real couple. Im a very strange guy about emoticons(this is important to know), because i can like a person and never ending up loving them. The thing is guys, She was fucking amazing, everybody has their dream partner and She was mine... She pressured me a lot for saying i love her, and actually ask her to BE my oficial GF(she's brazilian, it's and unwritten rule for some reason 😅) All of that combined with work, and other personal problems, ler into a a state that i coulndt be there for her and we just broke up, and stopped talking even after she kept trying to talk.(I know its a stupid move by me, i was just Over nyself, i just shutted down) I went on some recovery time, healed my self, learned to enjoy life. Its been almost a year since the break up, yesterday, i finnaly felt i could messsage her back no problem, we talked a lot of things, but we both dont like coming back to ex's, ive just been hurting, cause, it took me a fucking year realized i fucking love her, and know idk i just feel sad. Sorry about the errors, Im not English native, u just needed to let this out of my chest, and like talk. Sorry about the long text. Thanks for reading guys