Not the worst thing to happen to someone but to me it feels like it. Bit of backstory is the last 3 years have been rough for me emotionally. Before COVID I was a great student and was able to handle a part time job along with being praised for my work ethic and attitude. But after COVID hit my life lost a sense of direction and stability. I was surrounded by family members who spiraled into different mental health crises and I felt I need to be the Rock so to speak. So I repressed much of my own depression to try to take care of my family members. Unfortunately one committed suicide, another became violently unstable and had to be kicked out of the house, and my mother who I live with currently developed severe depression. I’ve tried my best to provide emotional support and we have moved to better living conditions but the shadow of those times still hangs over us. Sadly the biggest issue I’ve developed has been dragging my feet to get anything done and as a side effect my performance in work and school has suffered. When I thought I had found a job i enjoyed I was fired for being 10mins late on three separate days. My parents berated me and just told me it was because I was lazy and I’m a parasite on them. I figured while I tried searching for a new job I’d stay in school but due to a bad semester I was placed on Academic Probation. This once again got me in even more trouble at home but I thought I could recover. But even though I improved my study habits I missed two important assignments in one of my classes and have now have to sit out a semester of university. To my parents and family I might as well have failed life. Only thing positive now is that I’ve gotten a new job finally but having been fired once and failing to fix my academic probation has hit me so hard I don’t even know what to do anymore. I know what to do to avoid being late again so I’m not fired for a 2nd time but it just hurts. Im not lazy!! I used to want to do well in school and cared about working but after how those hard years I feel like it’s hard to care about things like I used to. Now I just feel like a disappointment and I can’t recover from this now matter what I do. Even if I fix my problems I’ll always be seen as the failure by my parents. My wiser self says that all I need to do is learn my lesson on time management and my life will improve, but it’s hard to act on it if I’m constantly being hit with punishments like this.