A father. That's all I want. Mine wasn't much of a father. They say you can't change the past, so just focus on changing the future. What the hell do I even look forward to from the future? I want to be someone's priority and be able to share everything with them. It's normal to have that kind of relationship with a father. But it's considered clingy and co-dependent with others. And I don't like it either. It feels stupid, and I can tell other people don't feel comfortable either.

What the hell is the point? I can't change not having a warm father. The die has already been rolled and the cards I was dealt at this hand of life were utter garbage. I feel I've already lost this dumb game before it began.