I (44F) have been with my BF (48M) for 7 years. His emotional and mental abuse has been getting increasingly worse over the last year or so. Whenever things don't go his way, he gets very mean and says things he knows hurts me to the core. (Ex. "I'm done with you, I want a divorce."; "I wish I wasn't alive." "I hate every part of my life including us.") We've been through a lot over the years but that does not warrant the way he treats me anymore. Then he will start trying to manipulate me into agreeing with him or doing what he wants. I don't know why he has so much resentment towards me. I've stuck with him through multiple affairs, including one that resulted in a pregnancy and now a custody battle with the child's (5) mother. When he is frustrated or upset, he takes it out on me. He blames me for everything, and refuses to take responsibility for his actions. Then an hour later, he acts like nothing happened. I love him unconditionally but sometimes he makes it very difficult, almost to a breaking point. The way he behaves, I think he believes I will stay and support him no matter what. There are times that I really want to but I can't bring myself to leave him for good. Other than because I love him, not sure why I allow him to treat me badly and don't leave. Sadly, he is my kryptonite and I feel like I can't leave him for good. Feel like I'm on an emotional roller coaster and can't get off. Sorry for the rambling. I'm an emotional mess right now...he just got mad at me because I disliked a picture of me that he likes. "Fine, I'm deleting EVERY picture that I have of you and you can send me the ones that you approve of." "I'm so done with you and us." My heart breaks a little more every time we fight.