He's explosively angry that I'm leaving him. Today, he looked so very violent. So murderously angry.

I can't leave our house as we have children together and I have no where to go and he's never actually hit me, so I don't have grounds to take the children away without an agreement in place.

I'm afraid that he's going to kill me. I guess I'm posting this mostly because maybe the police will do an audit of my phone and find this if I end up dead.

I'm not afraid of death, but I am sad that I won't be able to live more life. Also, I'd be sad not to see my children grow up 😞

I've had this feeling for months now that I'm not going to survive this.