I was supposed to get some dental work on Monday at 1pm. The dentist called and told me they had an emergency. Rescheduled me for first thing Tuesday morning.

I get up get ready and go over there. My stomach is kind of hurting probably bc my dinner last night was spicy (probably will need to use the bathroom later in the day). I’m anxiously. I don’t love the dentist and I haven’t had much dental work done beyond basic cleanings….but…I’m anxious.

They lean me back and are about to numb up my mouth and I stop them. They were super nice and I explained I was anxious. They gave me awhile to sit and sip some water and think about what would be best for me.

In the end I rescheduled. I’m mad bc I had this time blocked off. I’m not scared of the dentist…I’m scared of feeling sick while I’m at the dentist. But I feel like that doesn’t make sense to other people.

Sometimes my stomach hurts in the morning…and my anxiety is worse first thing very often…it’s a part of why I try to schedule most of my appointments in the afternoon.

I’m just mad at myself for wasting time, for eating a spicy dinner, and for being a baby….