I tried various methods. I tried:

• ruining my orgasm

• cumming into an empty pill bottle and consuming it later when I'm horny again

• cross dressing (with what I have available at home), pretending to be a woman, listen to some Sissy Hypno and hype myself up for eating my own cum

• trying to cum directly into my mouth

In the three first cases, I got post nut clarity and I changed mindsets immediately. I got disgusted by this and everything around it, and quit my masturbation session as soon as possible, later even not being able to remember what I've exactly done during it because I dissociate so much from my horny self.

The last point didn't work because I am unable to have an erection if I put my legs up over my head. It's theoretically possible to shoot cum into my mouth, but as I said, I can't keep and erection and the physical effort of doing it kills my horniness immediately, it's worse than working out.

So I have no options left at all. A pity, as it's been on my bucket list of slutty sexual things to do before I die... Any ideas what else I could try out?

And yes, it's weird that I am able to ruin my orgasm but still get post nut clarity. It's a weird sensation, but it's true.

Edit: Freezing my cum in ice cubes is not an option, as I am not living on my own