yesterday i woke up with such an urge to eat my cum, and knowing that i still struggle with post nut clarity. so i spent hours getting myself up knowing that if i could ruin myself, i could have a pretty good mini load to slurp down. i spent a good few hours watching cei videos and swallowing videos, really only playing with my nipples but feeling that i was leaking. eventually i couldn’t take it anymore and decided to start diddling. i went really slow, again knowing i wanted to ruin so i could eat my cummies. and finally when i did ruin, it was such a nice thick glob. i made sure to put it on my tongue, nice and warm and sticky. i let it stay there for a moment, trying to feel like a slut, before swallowing it down. but i also made sure i wasn’t touching myself- i didn’t want to squirt completely just yet. so i worked myself up nice and slow again, the taste of cum on my tongue and still on my fingers. and wouldn’t you know, i ruined myself again, and got an extra treat. i was so horny from the second time that i squirted as i swallowed, but i think i’m getting closer to finally eating a real load :)