My entire life is about control and routines. What most people don't realize is that the holidays, like a Christmas party or Christmas day dinner, disrupts this rountine and it has major effects to me.

I have had bulimia for over 6 years and until last week I was 300 days into my recovery. In the past 7 days, due to stressing about the change to my routine, with school holidays and stressing over tomorrow's meal, I have lost control. I'm the last 3 days along I have spent over $300 of money I can't afford, to buy food to binge and purge.

I tried to talk to a 'friend' about it and was just told to stop. It is not that easy I am hoping with Christmas being over tomorrow I can get back on track but with over stresses in my life (money and weight) it will be difficult.

I was originally not going to take part in Christmas as I an mindful enough to realize how much the change in rountine and what I eat can effect me when I let other people perceptions of that not being normal, win.

Advice to get back on track is appreciated.