I’ve posted here quite a few times with the purpose of talking about my interest in this kink.

I’ve really been delving deep into why I like this kink in particular. Apart from the obvious answer that it’s taboo which subconsciously is sexy to me, I find that it has a lot to do with my relationship to self and sexual desire.

I think most people desire to be wanted, coveted. But for me, I want to be coveted for my sexual purpose, how I can serve and pleasure others. I’ve always known I was submissive and have had queer relationships that involve power play. But, submitting to be coveted and used by someone I’m not necessarily attracted to? Well it gets me going in a way I can’t describe. Knowing that someone can see my identity and find a way to make me useful to them? It is something so primal for me.

Granted, am I fully ready to lose my gold star? Probably not at this moment. But do I see myself inching closer and closer the more I explore and play? Absolutely.