for reference i’m a total virgin. not just sexually but like i’ve never dated anyone, never kissed, nothing. it was just never something i was into because i just have more important things to worry about, like classes and things.

well, about a month ago i started birth control. no reason, just so i can regulate my PMDD and hopefully help me with easing some of my OCD, and it has definitely worked on that.

One interesting thing is that it has dialed up my horniness level to like 1000, when I used to be at maybe 10. I’m not even trying to exaggerate when I say I feel like a horny rabbit that just wants to get pounded all day and not think about anything. I used to hardly masturbate and now I have to do it at least three times a day or i’m so horny.

i got sized for new bras and learned that I’m apparently a 42DD or even DDD, and my first thought wasn’t about what bra to get, it was about how men might feel seeing my tits. Or grabbing them on the subway or something like that. Right after that, I impulsively bought a vibrator because I couldn’t stop thinking about it.

I have super sensitive nipples and a sensitive clit too, so I’ve always been super reluctant to touch myself, but now I can’t go more than an hour without the need to overtaking my head. I’m constantly fantasizing about men touching me in public or getting shown my place and my virginity taken, getting my pussy filled to the brim. I guess what excites me about that is I don’t think I could ever go back. Just the idea of getting trained into the perfect little thing by some man that’s smarter than me, and where I don’t have to think about anything but doing what I’m told. I haven’t been able to stop thinking about it for weeks. i don’t know if there’s any subs i can find to help get me off or subs to meet people but it’s driving me crazy tbh.