Today is day 60 of my DXM sobriety of course I still smoke weed at night tho.

My last trip was on 210mg with Vyvanse taken in the morning. I was completely out of it when I dosed and forgot I took my Vyvanse. During my trip I tried to call 911 because I thought I was having a stroke but instead it was just a panic attack so luckily I didn’t call them.

Somethings I’ve noticed during my time away. - I have been mentally reawakening and becoming much more in touch with the world around me.

• 2-3 weeks was the hardest withdrawal I’ve ever felt

• DXM made me feel and act bipolar when I was taking it. Since then I feel so much more in control of my life

• I miss the Chaos, I know that sounds weird but constantly feeling like a fuck up and not knowing whats going on has been super comforting over the last 2 years and its kinda hard to function when I’m capable of thinking

• DXM has given me permanent memory loss. There a month long gaps I can’t recall a single thought from

• DXM has given me permanent HPPD and Heart palpitations

• DXM has forever changed my perspective on life

• My depression shows up less often now and not nearly as strong

• Life is WAY MORE overwhelming

• Music is kinda ruined. I still love it but I know it can be so much better

These are the most notable things I’ve noticed. I’m curious if anyone else who has gone sober has noticed that they miss the chaos.

I’ve also heard that shrooms have music enhancement so might try that:)

Love you all stay safe