I just knew it. I didn't have the resolve that I'd usually had and made it four days but I always knew it was going to happen. Ever get those ones? Im going to try again tomorrow but it's so fucking hard. Have eight beers and drinking one now. Bought enough so I wouldn't black out but I'd get a good buzz. Literally feel like im letting everyone down I know, even this sub. Sorry guys, ill try again tomorrow. Ill be keeping this private from my family and friends, they can't know so it's a sad party for one. If I can get seven days I know I can do it, ill go for seven tomorrow. I had nearly two months not so long ago. Fucking idiot.