Im a blackout binge drinker i drank three beers tonight which is low for me and I had 12 days sober don't know where to go from this. Progress because I stopped at three. Is this a relapse? Im not even drunk, have a mild mild buzz. I was doing so well, I hate complex ptsd. I was the only one there when my mum had a heart attack, the paramedics said I did so well. It was terrifying for me, and my drinking became weekend to everyday. I've had a year sober before, and a year and a half. But sometimes I wanna binge to numb everything. The two girls I loved in my life cheated on me, was all a lie. I just want to forget sometimes. Is three beers a relapse after 12 days. I guess so. Fuck