I’ve been sober for over a year and it really just doesn’t feel worth it at all. I’m so fucking miserable and unhappy and wish I had an escape of alcohol to not feel this way. Going sober I lost literally all of my friends. I don’t leave my house and I’m such a hermit now… I just feel so empty and alone. It sucks that my only way to be social was through drinking. I feel like I don’t know how to have friends sober and when I was using I destroyed all of my real relationships too. I always thought the longer I stayed sober the more I would be happy with the decision but that is not the case at all. At least when I was drunk I was happy and didn’t have to bear with these feelings. I had party friends who weren’t real friends but at least it was something. I have nothing now. I hate who I am as a person and alcohol masked that feeling. Over a year later and still feeling like this has me thinking it’s so pointless and I should just start drinking again. When does it get better?