So I got drunk (what a suprise), and went to sleep. Woke up 3 hours later, so drunk that I didn't know who I was and wasn't even aware of the fact that I'm existing, needed to pee, but went to the bathroom instead of the toilet for God knows what reason (in my apartment, the toilet and the bathroom (tub sink) is separated), couldn't hold it anymore and peed myself while leaning on the sink. I, then, went to the kitchen (note: I didn't change at this point so I was at the kitchen covered in my own pee), made a salad with an unholy amount of thousend island sauce on it, went back to my room, ate it seating on the floor, and than changed.

I remembered this in the morning when I wake up, but it felt surreal, like it didn't really happen, did it? Maybe I just dreamed of it? I went to the bathroom to take a shower and the rug was wet and I turned into full panic mode, like my roommate was at home last night, idk if she noticed anything, but I couldn't just leave the rug there for her to discover it so I put it and my dirty pants into a plastic bag and throw it under my bed.

I couldn't clean them today because I need to wash them on at least 60C° to sanitize but I was busy conviencing the doctor at the annual yearly company checkup, that me and my underweight BMI are both perfectly healthy, my low blood pressure is because I forgot to drink my morning coffee (had two by 9am), my blood sugar is low because idk (obviously not the alcohol fucking with it), I'm not smoking that much, I only drink occasionally (every day is an occasion), I go for an hour run 3-4 times a week (not drunk af of course, who would do that), and my period? It's like a swiss clock (I didn't have it in the last couple of months).
After I went to do said job I just renewed my yearly licence that I'm capable of doing, I thought it's not a big deal lying so much at the doctors office, because look at me, I'm doing my job with the most professional attitude, while I sometimes thought that it's funny, they don't know I peed myself last night.

By the way, soiled rug and clothes, I didn't have time to wash, and probably won't have any until tomorrow afternoon, so they are just here, rotting in a plastic bag in my room, if THIS is not a rock bottom / wake up call, than I don't know what is.