I'm 22, been off and on homeless for the past 4 years. Only material belongings I have are maybe three sets of clothes and my car that hardly starts. I can't ever hold down a job because I start to see the flaws and give up fast on everything. I've been through 5 jobs in the past 6 months. I live alone and finally have been able to afford my own single bedroom apartment. I sleep on an air mattress and only eat ramen/cheap cereal. I don't have any friends where I live. I moved 12 hours away from my hometown to try and start over. All of my friends are online and I feel like they are fake. I constantly go back and forth on picking up smoking again. I have big mental health swings and it affects the few relationships I have. I just want to give up and runaway again. Here's to hoping things look up Anon, tho I know it won't anytime soon.