I feel a pang of discomfort at the thought of just tossing out line or two declaring my desires without offering any context or snapshot of who I am and my present condition. My name is Christian, though I’ve never been one. These past few years I vacillate from agnostic to spiritual. I do my best to be a kind and at times altruistic person to all no matter how they’ve treated me. I am currently mourning the loss of my best friend. Overdose but I think he was murdered only a few months ago. Healing from an unexpected dumping by my longest and most cherished romantic partnership. He still lives with me still to his benefit. He was homeless when we met and now is a manager of a restaurant. I feel good knowing I’ve provided him the stability to enjoy a better life, though wish he were as concerned about how he affects me which makes me worry he is somewhat taking advantage of my mental state and fear of conflict. Don’t have any close friends or family anymore. Though have my beloved cat that is thriving in her fourteenth year on this planet. I hate that I don’t have the means to get her a catio built to thank her got all she has done for me when I know she wishes she was allowed outdoors. My best friend was gonna built her one for the winter holidays but died in November. I suppose you’d probably prefer me stop rambling and get to the point by now. Financial assistance to obtain my renewed drivers license (my birthday was in February/expiration date) and to put to something like a laptop for when I go back to college after a decade this fall. My friend had been working on mine when he died and his mother nor I could locate all the parts. Or even just some kind words would be swell at this time. I fear i am not presenting myself in my best light but alas it has already been just a dreadful year and I am not my best.