My GF of six months has been verbally abusive in the past few months. Always when drinking, always apologized. Well Saturday she took it too far. I went to sleep Friday night. Woke up Saturday morning and she had drank an entire bottle of gin.

I calmly sat next to her and asked her to go to bed. She started verbally berating me about pretty much every facet of my being. I took out my phone to record her so she can hear how she is once she sobers up. She took my phone from my hand and threw it in the fish tank. She chased me to the kitchen. Threw two glasses on the floor and shattered them. Finally she slapped me in the chest and pushed me into the laundry room. I called her dad to come get her and thank God he did otherwise I probably would have had to call the cops. She was like a demon.

I know I can't let her back into my life but the messed up part is I kinda miss her? This is so tough, I almost catch myself blaming myself.