Was with my wife for almost 15 years.

Until last September we were happily married.

She had a repressed memory pop of a rape, got diagnosed with bipolar 2, and lost her mind.

Since then she has put me through some severe emotional & financial abuse. She has gaslit me. Spent 80k . Serial cheated . Has blamed me for everything .

I have been diagnosed with ptsd & depression. I can’t sleep.
I am attending a dv support group. Have a therapist. We’re divorcing ( she’s even finding ways to make this suck)

Yet I miss her a lot. We are as happy as a couple could be. I cry for her. I desperately want to go back to how we used to be