Hey all,

Fuck. Where do I even begin. This is the first time I've sat down and had a few moments to myself since Thursday... when all this crazy stuff began. I know some of you will say, BUT YOU STREAMED SATURDAY, how could it have been this crazy. Well here is the story.

First off, JenJen has Gastroparesis. The easiest way to explain it is a condition that makes it more difficult to digest food. This usually has to do with muscle paralysis and the stomach not emptying properly. If you've ever had the flu, and have not been able to stop throwing up. Imagine that, but it could last for days at a time. She was diagnosed with this over a year ago, and we've slowly been adjusting our lifestyles to better suit her health (diet change, certain foods are gone, etc).

So anyway, on Thursday we had a few errands to run. This was Halloween. JenJen was fine. She was like 150% at 10AM, but around 1PM I could tell she wasn't feeling that good. With Gastroparesis, sometimes the nausea/vomiting can come and go after eating. I could tell immediately that it wasn't good (I can actually just HEAR it in her voice). So we went to the ER. They gave her some meds, things appeared to have calmed down, and we came home.

SHE WAS FINE FOR LIKE 12 HOURS

But then when she woke up the next day (Saturday) - I could already tell shit was bad again. And we had to go BACK into the ER (this is when I stopped streaming on Saturday). They've since run some tests and are trying to stay on top of everything. ... Fuck. We're just waiting for them to say she can go home, or they want to run more tests. Either way, I just wish I knew.

SO AS OF 9:19PM CST on MONDAY JenJen is still in the hospital. I don't know when she's going to get out but I do hope it's today. It doesn't make it any easier to deal with knowing I am supposed to leave for LA in two days for GDC Next and BlizzCon. If I have to cancel I will, cause family comes first, but I feel horrible that I would severely inconvenience TWO companies as a result. That makes me feel terrible.

I also apologize that we didn't have RIGGED SUNDAY on 11/3. I have some great stuff to give away and I'm just going to roll it over into the next event. I will probably do a RIGGED SUNDAY next week. So keep your eyes peeled (NOTE: because I say NEXT WEEK doesn't mean ON SUNDAY... we might do it on another day).

Additionally, this week is going to be SUPER light on content. The week after is PS4, so there will be plenty there, but I probably won't be able to stream much while I'm on the road. I'm going to be filming while I'm out, but I have no idea if I'll be able to upload them.

Anyway, thanks to everyone who's sent their best wishes. It's really nice to have a 2nd family to talk with and get support from. I hope I can be here for you guys as much as you guys are always here for me.

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