Ok so I am a m38 and I know right from the git what I am in for, for posting here but I want honesty from both sides, so for starters me and my wife are high school sweet hearts we’ve been together for 20 yrs and married for 12, have 2 kids 1 in high school and another in middle school, well about 1.5 years ago we started having marital problems, arguing, bedroom problems, not in the same page with the kiddos, no communication the list goes on and on and it’s being caused by both parties not just one sided. And we’ve been pretty rocky for alil while before that. So I travel a lot for work well a year ago I was in Texas for 4 months during this really bad time for us (u all know where this is going) yes one of my coworkers and I started seriously talking and so on well I have been seeing her for a year now on the side but me and my wife are literally talking about divorce and have been for like 6 months, this other women is literally like my soul mate like seriously she says we’re the last 2 missing puzzle pieces, I can truly say I never felt this way even towards my wife. The big ? Is i can’t seem to pull the trigger on actually making the decision about getting a divorce like im scared of the unknowns with my kids im not worried about the money cuz money doesnt buy happiness and i truly dont want to hurt my wife either but we are both miserable. Im completely lost and dont know what to do or how to feel, fuck why is life and love so damn hard