I'm not sure if this is in the right sub;

I'm a (self diagnosed) sex & love addict.

I'm a really attractive guy. I'm very well read, intelligent, all of the things; I'm completely aware of it, and I have zero issues dating 'normally'; I've never married and I don't have any kids. I tell people it's because I've dedicated my life to my profession and businesses, but really it's because I lead a totally double life as a sex and love addict totally behind the scenes. No one in my personal or professional life would have a clue about my other life...

My 1st cousin and I started fooling around when her and I were growing up, and, it lead to full blown sex for over a decade. We never told anyone, we were never caught, and we ended up stopping because we both graduated High School and moved on in our separate life paths.

I'm a small business owner, and although I do pretty well & I'm totally self made; I 1,000% would be in a completely different situation had I not become obsessed with sex, masturbation, porn, nudity, and hooking up with other people that are completely like minded, equally as attractive, intelligent, driven, type-a, all of the boxes that also have a completely hidden life that they're able to manage [sometimes just barely, like myself.]

I'm constantly, constantly juggling my double life as a sex addict, constantly jerking off - looking for people on reddit that are like minded (and other anonymous apps) to see if we align, and meetup for super risky sex (baby making sex) the second we both meet.

I have my staff pickup the slack, almost always; and I always keep it together. I'm calm, focused, and I work through issues - daily. When I'm solo, and with the people that I meetup with, I'm completely reckless diving into every kink imaginable just to get off with another person that has the same type of background - people that can genuinely relate.