Introductory ramble: Happy Christmas! Trying this again after being ghosted (multiple times in a week. Am smashing fear, really) I like to think I have my shit together but the truth is love being a mess. A begging, almost crying, one at that. Unfortunately, I cannot be a mess at work or at home because there are “expectations” of me. Which is why I want to be able to be a mess for/with someone who wouldn’t mind taking care of me and putting me back together after he’s done breaking me down. Melt my brain, yeah?

I like being pampered, spoilt, coddled, adored, doted on. Wanted. Cherished. But I also would love to be used and degraded. I want to be a perfect and pretty princess but also be only yours to touch and own.

I want you to tell me when I can touch myself. I want you to choose my outfits on the days I don’t feel like thinking too much. I want you to distract me when I’m working by telling me all the ways you were thinking about having me. Ask me if I ate well, if I was hydrated, if I took care of myself (because I belong to you, don’t I?). Put up with me being petulant or sassy but do reprimand me when I am about to cross/will cross any lines.

I want to press my thighs closed every time a notification for a message from you pops up.

And can I please just have an orgasm at the hands of a guy? Or mouth. Or cock. Anything, really.

I have no qualms in admitting that I’m materialistic as fuck too. Buy me things if you want me to be giddy.

I also do not like to share. If you have other romantic partners (other submissives, or if they’re not your submissives - even if you’re in an “open relationship”, married to a wife who doesn’t meet your needs - I don’t want anything to do with it). I’m selfish and if I want someone to own me, I get to claim them too. I’m not going to be a dirty secret. This may not start off as a romantic thing, but I want a long term thing.

Physical description: 158cms, UK size 14 (measurements should be easily available for you to find online), black hair that falls below my chest. I have a bunch of tattoos. I love how soft to touch and supple my skin is - if you’re looking for someone lean and athletic, it isn’t me.

Kinks: Praises and rewards, impact play (nothing brutal), bondage, degradation, orgasm control, being marked, edging, sensory play

Hobbies: aerial silks, collecting precious jewellery, making textiles from hand, reading trashy novels, crying and complaining about work - I’m fabulous at the last one, especially.

I also love taking pictures on my Polaroid camera of any and all bruises I get because I love seeing the red and purple markings blossom on my skin. I think they’re pieces of art.

Looking for: Someone older than me who definitely knows what they’re seeking. Someone who is just as, if not more, witty as me. I love flirty banter - it’s basically foreplay for me. If you can one up me, I would definitely be surprised. Stimulate my brain. Be more knowledgeable than me about things like your own work. I have a huge competency kink.

Be someone who is attentive, caring (yeah, a care giver without the age play), and can communicate if they’re going to be unable to respond to my messages because of work or other obligations (a basic ask. The bar truly is in hell, isn’t it?). Someone who can and will use me to fuck away their frustrations. Someone who is big on after care.

I want chemistry. I want you to want me.

I would appreciate if you included a physical description of yourself along with whatever message you’re sending because I really like feeling small next to my partners. I would especially appreciate anyone who can manhandle me and toss me around (taller, muscular - you don’t have to have abs, love a good dad bod)

I will demand a clean bill of health. You need to get tested for all STIs and STDs if there’s going to be anything sexual about this. And I will ask for pictures for verification prior to meeting anyone (if it comes to it).