I'm about to give up, I've been looking for months for a dominant mistress who likes it when I serve her online. A connection where I can be so submissive and vulnerable like no where else, a miss with whom I can actually live out my deepest femdom fantasies again.

It wouldn't be so bad if I didn't know that it's possible to find such a person here, in the summer I had contact with a perfect online mistress for two weeks. Unfortunately, we somehow lost contact and since then I have been searching in vain for something that comes close to this dynamic. It's a shame to see that many people here are either not who they say they are or just want to take money out of your pocket.

I'm 20 and I'm studying biology right now. I did medicine before, but have now changed. I'm 1.85 m tall with a slim-normal body. I love to do sports, especially running and cycling. I was always quite submissive, especially when I was growing up in a semi-detached house with my cousin. She's two years older and we used to play "doctor games" when we were kids very often. Even back then, I found it really exciting to stand naked and vulnerable in front of her and show her everything I had.

Later, during puberty, I became interested in the femdom categories, like gentle femdom, chastity couples and so on. My first big mistress crush was definitely "Marie Kaefer". I wished so often that I was her boyfriend, haha.

When my friends talked about sex, I imagined that my first girlfriend was a bit older, dominant and knew exactly what she wanted from me and what I had to do to make her happy. I often imagined her tying me to a chair, controlling my orgasms, playing with my balls and torturing them a bit. Or that she locks my dick away in a cage and she only unlocks me when she wants it.

I had the chance to try out a few things on my list over the summer, but there are still much kinks that I'd love to tick off. don't worry, just write to me if my post sounded interesting