First, I'll start by telling you I'm not all there. I have a long history of traumatic brain injuries and I've really been paying the piper the past few years. My short term memory is almost non-existent. I'm not quite myself anymore. I don't have any particular interests to tell you about. I used to, but it feels like the slate has been wiped clean. I'm open to new experiences. I'm still trying to figure me out. After some of the more recent bumps on the head I took a hiatus from peopling. I'm thinking it might be nice to get in the habit of doing that again.

Second, it's not possible for me to keep up with someone the way people expect it now. I'm big on matching energy but I'm also up front about my situation. My health holds me back and if someone wants to talk to me they should know there are times I don't have it in me. I take things one day at a time and that's the best I can do.

I noticed the number of messages I was getting decreased after I mentioned my autism. I was weird with a different kind of brain even before all the blows rewired me.

Someone told me I gave them Theo Von vibes. I didn't know what the hell that meant and I had to look it up. I guess I can see it a little. I'm funnier though and I haven't had a mullet since I was eight, so...

My main reason for coming here is I feel like maybe I bother my friends too much. I thought I'd give them a break. My circle isn't as big as it once was. Turns out when the going gets rough, people really get going and you find out who your friends are.

Lastly, I'm not just writing something to try to get the attention of the maximum amount of people. I'm not a collector and I'm not here for everyone to like me. I'm trying to weed out the ones that aren't a good fit with the hope that there's one person out there that sees this who is.

I choose to write my own posts rather than replying to other's. I make shit choices and I need to know whoever's on the other end is actually interested in talking to me. I'm a decent person though, so the universe does occasionally seem to reward me. If I can only stay out of my own way.