This is kind of weird and a little bit hard to explain because it doesn't fit easily into the paradigms that most people are familiar with. But I have this idea of an, “MFM lifestyle,” and it is important to me.

I've always liked traditionally "slutty" girls and I have, for a while now, wanted to be with a woman who wants to have two boyfriends. It's something I've fantasized about for as long as I can remember—but it's more than just a sexual fetish. While part of this desire is highly sexual, the other part of it is also very practical. The sexual aspect is actually easier to explain. I love everything that has to do with MFM play. I could talk about this endlessly (and if you PM me, I probably will). Somehow it just feels so natural to me. Weird? Yeah, weird. When I let my freak flag fly you can see very clearly that it has two hotdogs and one taco on it.

But the fantasy is so much deeper than that. I would want the three of us to be together. Sleep together, live together… possibly even have kids together. I don't know how any of this would actually work, it seems like a bit of a logistical nightmare, and it’s hard enough to maintain a relationship between two people sometimes—but I'm willing to accept that challenge. I imagine us traveling together as a triad. There’s something about that I find both beautiful and incredibly romantic.

Now, there are all sorts of buckets you can slot this into, but none of them are quite right. Bisexual, cuckold, hotwife, poly, swinger… all those sorts of dynamics turn me on, but none of them quite capture what I'm looking for. Just to further clarify: I'm not (usually) submissive and I don't have a small penis. In fact, it's quite the opposite—I'm typically very dominant and hung like whoa. I believe the technical term for what I'm looking for is a closed (or mostly closed) polyandrous 'V'. That is, a relationship where the two guys are dedicated to one woman. I say "mostly closed" because I'm also open to the idea of additional men on occasion, although this is purely just an idea I'm open to. What I'm saying is: if that's something you're into, I'm open to it.

And while I don't really label myself, for the purposes of this post I think I have to. I'm either bisexual or heteroflexible depending on how you want to define it. I seem to find other men attractive only in the context of this dynamic. The idea of a 1:1 relationship with another guy does nothing for me. But somehow if there is a woman who is a shared desire that all changes. I don't find myself attracted to other men at random, but if I'm with a woman it's different somehow. My mind starts to wander and I start to find myself attracted to other guys she’s attracted to. If I notice she’s interested in someone I find myself wondering what his cock might taste like after he's been balls deep in her pussy. You see, I love tacos. I’m happy eating tacos all day every day. But sometimes when I’m enjoying a taco I start thinking about what it might be like to also have a hot dog. But I only want that hot dog if it comes in a combo pack with a taco. Tacos and hot dogs actually go together pretty well if you do it right. And maybe every now and then if the taco is too tired I might even want a hot dog by itself… doubly so if I think it might turn the taco on. The analogy is starting to fall apart, but maybe you get the idea?!

I posted this as M4F, but I also realize that it's possible that there are two likeminded people who have already found each other and might be looking for me, so I’ll probably followup with a M4FM post as well. I'm 40, white, 6' tall, slim, hung, and look a lot younger than I am, and clearly a total… something. Whatever that something is I don’t quite know, but maybe you are too. :)