Hi. I’m an addict. I had a rough weird life. A lot of trauma and abuse. And now I’m here trying to cope looking for someone. This is going to be weird to say but I’m not just looking for a hook up. Well I am. Definitely am. I would love to get better, but today isn’t for that.

I’ve been two years “sober” ig. My partner was overseas and I’m glad to say I never cheated on her. Disappointed to say starving myself meant destroying everything else in my life, including their love for me. So now I’m alone. Hello again. I hope if you’re still reading you’re interested. I need sex. Regularly. I don’t expect you to be like my live in sex toy lol, we both have lives, family, jobs, maybe school, or other responsibilities. I just need someone who can make a serious agreement with me.

We both need sex. That’s what the addiction is. Maybe it is for different reasons. Maybe we lived very different lives. But we have one thing in common at least. So let’s take care of each other. Let me take care of you. And you can take care of me. Regularly, whatever we agree that looks like. Once a weeks, three times a week, hell if you want me every single day I could do my best to swing that. Living like this is hard, you know that. And sometimes it’s so fucking lonely. I don’t want love. I don’t need forced love. I don’t need romance to survive. But I also can’t survive on sex alone. I need some kind of intimacy, mostly platonic if that makes sense. The true meaning of FWBs lol. I need the benefits. I care about those benefits more than anything. But god I need a friend. I need to be held. I need someone to grab my face and tell me I’m beautiful and amazing. I don’t want to pretend like I could ever love you, I can barely love myself. I could barely love the person I actually loved. But let’s be friends. Please. Let’s hold each other. Laugh together. Cuddle. Be free together trying to keep the addiction at bay while we enjoy each other’s company.

I don’t care who you are really. How young or old (over 18 please), if you’re married, have kids, disabled, etc. I don’t discriminate. I won’t judge you, or your sins. We both probably have some regrets. Some things we can’t let go. The most I can do is be there for you.

I guess a little about me. I’m 21. I’m actually genderfluid. And pansexual. I just trust women more which ironic cuz allll my abusers were women lol. I’m not super big but pretty athletic. I hike,swim, climb, box, do calisthenics. I try to be functionally fit but I’m trying to do more lifting. I work as a contractor but do software engineering and cyber work as a profession. I’m pretty nerdy. Into the whole anime, manga, cosplay thing. I game occasionally. I’m trying to become a published writer.

That’s all about me for now. I hope we can have a real talk and work this out. I plan on always using protection for both of our safety. I prefer you be DDF but weed is fine. If you read this far, tell me your favorite book and why. And text me so we can figure this shit out together lol. I can’t host any meetings but traveling and car play is fine