I want to be all about you, get in to your passions, what brings happiness and joy. Learn where you've been, what you're working on and where you're headed. I want to learn the bad things, the not so good feels. The annoying things. I want to be there and I want to care. All, I want us to share it all!

Firstly I'm in a longggterm relationship. I'm not looking to run away, yet. I'm here most importantly to create a forever kind of friend. Someone to learn a little about ourselves with as we start a conversation that will take a good long while to stop. Get ourselves into a groove we just can't get out of!

I'm almost unsure of who I am and what I want out of life lately. I don't really know who I've become over the years. Making changes to better my life and health and situation while becoming distant to those around me and what even brings my joy and happiness. Living on autopilot, doing the same efficient and least stressful daily routine I can manage.

Disconnected and/or out of touch to just about everything around me. I'm by no means a downer or a boring person. I keep myself entertained, but I really like being entertaining. Sharing my stories, experiences, music, knowledge from my years, I don't want to sound like an old man, but I've been told I'm an old soul. I also like pulling old timey words and phrases out randomly.

I'm curious of other relationship paths. I like to call them the "advanced human relationships". Monogamy is kind of meh and archaic. I don't usually like to share what's mine, but then I might want to be shared. It's a whole predicament! Or get better with the being sneaky and it just is what it is. Maybe there is that one true person for everyone, I have yet to witness it. The other big thing leaving me confused is my career path, that needs some looking at too. I must find ways to take my specific set of skills and make it work elsewhere maybe even in a totally different field! Changing careers this late seems daunting!

I enjoy photos, taking them, looking at them, dressing up (both silly, and nice), sharing the things I see, do, create, make me smile, make me think, make me feel, everything. I just want to share everything with you. One thing I have noticed with photos is they are the best distraction. Able to take your mind many places in not so long of a time. I've been researching fancyish cameras, and feel almost confident enough to purchase! I can't wait to take real photos, not phone ones! I see photographs and words as a creative side of myself, but I'm on a hunt to find much more of it somewhere inside of me.

Another thing I'd love to tell you is that I'm kind of like a modern day medicine man of sorts. I took making some medicine up as a recent (5 years) task. The goal was to negate or become self sufficient in one of my budget categories, the "fun" category where my weed was. It has had its ups and downs but I think I'm finally getting the hang of it. I've learned a lot of stuff the hard way! I also am getting into mycology and the growing of mushrooms, culinary as well as magic. The research in microdosing is fascinating. I've tried it a few times, but not routinely. So betwixt all the music, laughs, real drugs as well as a little bit of me, I can be a drug of sorts. Calming, bringing energy, making you feel, see things, and care!

I like to think I'm many things but will claim to be no one thing. I'm not a fan of labels, and good luck labeling what we become. As you've seen I'm always working on myself, I like learning things, I'm at my happiest admiring or playing in nature, or a live musical performance. People watching, watching talented folks and their craft, the emotions, the moving and the grooving!

So, what would I like from you. Please be a lady that might be interested in getting to know someone slightly interesting, building a place to be ourselves free of most judgement, to learn and grow and be better versions of ourselves. Please be 33-45, I don't mind your status, have time to invest, are able to find yourself somewhat interesting or entertaining, maybe you're questioning things, changing things, curious, or could use some random nonsense, surprises, and fun.

Tell me about one of your happy places, or something you've been getting yourself into, orrr something you've been working on. I can't wait to meet you!