Hello Gents!

To be honest I'm having some trouble writing this post, I've already re-wrote and delete it multiple times... Because you see, I'm trying to be both open, while actually making sure you know all the important details, but I still wanna sound sexy and flirtatious enough so that the picture isn't the only thing grabbing your attention. Oh, and on top of that I'm trying to not scare you away by sounding fucking crazy... It is surprisingly hard to juggle all that!

Let's start at the beginning, my name is Matilde, I'm 38 years old, which is definitely not young, but I still look quite good and even have abs on better days, although Toblerone is on sale at Lidl so, this is probably not gonna be super cut abs month, sorry about that, I guess! Either way I'm a fairly tall and strong woman who grew up in the very much inhospitable outdoors, who loves martial arts and just sports in general. Someone who can definitely take care of herself and others in her orbit. And yet... Here I'm writing this post about my very very different private persona.

Because you see when it comes to my private life/sexuality then I like to not be in charge so much... And that's a huge fucking understatement! You would probably thing that a woman like me would be the biggest feminist ever, but that's actually far from the truth. I mean just because I personally can do something doesn't mean everybody else can... But I don't wanna get into a political debate and thus I digress and step over to the sexual part of all this.

I do not like to have too much autonomy over my body in a sexual context. Not being in control is something I find so very exciting. I like to be humiliated a bit, degraded, forced into unfair challenges which are totally unwinnable for me. Like for instance, that's how I look after failing to do a hundred repetitions of the exercise while being distracted by a bullet vibrator. Could I have done it without a vibe, no. Could my you do it? No, but you're the Dom, you don't have to prove yourself. Me on the other hand as a lowly woman do...

Why would I have control over my own pain and pleasure? I'm a big lover of pain and orgasm control, they are both a big part of my "sexual self", and to be honest I don't wanna decide if I had enough or not. I just wanna be told that a strong woman like me should be able to take it, whatever it may be. Pain, relentless edging for days/weeks/months without release or orgasm after orgasm continuously until I'm close to passing out from the exhaustion. Yes it is my body, but the amount of suffering it needs to endure should never be my decision.

Look, in short I'm looking for a friend to talk to about whatever that comes up, life, challenges, funny shit, video games and so on... But importantly I want this friend to want to flirt with me and take control over me in occasion.

Thus I need someone who can treat me as a friend while also simultaneously being a bit degrading. Someone who can make me laugh but also can turn me on with his words. Someone who will have no problem listening to a horrible day of mine while also simultaneously forcing me to tighten that squeeze on my nipples until hurt so badly like they're almost falling off. Someone who can chat with me about some weird new shit or even play a video game together, while also forcing me to ride my wand for as long as he wants me to. I need you to be the kind of person who is happy to give me a friendly hug in one moment, only to grab a nipple and pull me inside for a long whipping in the other.

I know that finding the right balance between seeing me as friend/sub will be hard. But please feel free to reach out if you feel interested. Write me a dm, a substantial and catchy letter, grab my attention and make me drop my clothes if you wish, but most importantly capture my interest. Be fun, be yourself. Make me want to drop these actually very comfortable panties and sports bra! :D

Thanks, Tilde