Hi,

I am a tall and fit Dutch guy who is not religious and still a virgin at my age. :( (1,90 m, 70 kg)

Why I am still an inexperienced virgin?

The following story is not fun. Before starting I want to say that I am kind of alright now. I am a confident guy and I managed to buy a beautiful newly built house. So there are also some positive things in my life. Now the bad stuff:

As a teenager I got bullied but we also had a terrible single mom neighbour who let her dogs bark all day long... inside the house and in the garden... for years. Those two factors resulted in that I developed attention span difficulties. This made university difficult for me. My grades were good and I won a few academic awards with individual projects. But I couldn't focus myself at all while working in large rooms. Similarly, I also never could concentrate in class during my high school years.

Honestly university felt like I was busy trying to survive. I think that's truly why I was not interested at all in women during my studies (no I am not gay). There were periods that I partied quite a lot and had great fun doing so. But once back home I was in survival mode again.

Moreover, I had/have a terrible father who hated me and my mom (parents fortunately divorced when I was young). I heard from a good looking woman once that she never had been interested in romantic relationships until she met someone at 28 years old. The reason she cited is that she always saw her parents fighting when she was young...

Similarly I've always preferred a care-free life with no girlfriend. Most people are looking for love. I am not interested in that and I've never been before. So that limits my chances of experiencing intimacy with someone or sexual acts.

I am not whining or living in the past. Definitely not. But some things do have an influence on your personality whether you want it or not. Of course one can try to change oneself. Hence why I am trying to gain some experience now. I never tried this before as my focus was always on study and work.

Currently I am just so used to my life of being single all those years. I think the only possibility for me to become interested in a romantic relationship is to start experimenting by having sex. What I mean by that: you sometimes hear that a fwb turns into a serious relationship. So I just want to try to feel something. Not that I am necessarily looking for a fwb. It depends on what you want.

Maybe a one-night-stand can also give me valuable insights. So I am also open to experience something like that.

I don't live in a large city. So that makes it more difficult to find someone. I think I am quite a fun guy. So hopefully you want to give me a chance.