Hello Gents!

Thank you very much for giving me an opportunity, despite the fact that I’m far from young and and easy to control! In fact I might present quite the challenge, but I digress for now…

Before getting into all the nasty things, my name is Matilde, I’m fairly tall, strong and muscular… some people would say I’m a bit intimidating. One thing is certain though, no one would describe me as submissive who is about to spend an hour writing a post in order to trap herself in a never ending spiral of desperation… And yet here we are!

I never understood why people seem to be in disbelief that woman of my stature and character would be submissive.

See, I don't believe that submission is a weakness. In fact every single whiplash, slap or edge and so on makes me stronger, more disciplined and a better woman as whole. Because you see I'm a feminist at heart, I believe I have the right and capabilities to be whoever I want in my professional life. I was soldier for twenty fucking years, who learn a dozen languages, trained fought and won all over the world. Someone who grew up on tracking and hunting on the beautiful frozen landscape of Greenland. I've retired, and work as a private contractor now. Frankly I can do what a fuck ever I want.

However, there's a big difference between my professional ambitions of wanting to live a valuable and meaningful life and the fact that I will never ever deny that I want to lose control the moment I enter home. Is it anti-feminist to believe that my body and mind are strong enough to fulfil two purposes?

I don't think so...

Because I have the capacity and strength to surrender myself, to suffer for other's enjoyment... Is it so wrong to feel fulfilment trough submission?

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Well, regardless what you think, I will take my free time and submit, that doesn't mean that I'll be your doormat who will do whatever you want regardless of my feelings. But I want us to have a great time. A great time of making me desperately needy. I mean why would a body meant for others enjoyment get any relief, right? Plus if you ask me it's lightyears more fun to make me toss and turn in my bad every night trying oh so desperately to fall asleep despite my throbbing, spasming cunt and all the attached painful little clamps around my body.

Pain and desperation... I can't imagine a better combination!

But I need someone to tag along...

• Someone to hold my hand on hard days, to tell me that I'm strong and to fight and that I'm able to resist an orgasm all the while simultaneously giving me instructions to tease myself even more.
• Someone to keep me desperately hot and bothered for a long long time
• Someone who reassures me that I'm pretty and strong despite the fact that my sports bra and my whole body is drenched in sweat from all the resisting after a long weekend day of teasing, and edging.
• Someone who I can talk to and share my feelings and desperate thoughts
• Someone who can make me laugh with stupid jokes despite how much my nipple clamps hurt
• Someone who will calm me down and reassure me that I can take another few minutes on my wand without an orgasm, only to hear my desperate moan as he reveals that a few is in fact anywhere between 15 and 60 minutes.
• Someone who I can have a good time, with, paly a pc game, have some fun, all the while finding the time to flirt with me tease me and remind me that I'm dripping like a broken tap already.

In short I'm looking for someone who'd consider me a friend... A sexy female, submissive friend, but a friend nevertheless!

I'd love this to be long term, very long term if possible... I plan to build myself to be a better denied woman, and reach 3, 6 or even possible 12 months without an orgasm. I want to challenge both my body and mind and potentially make a wonderful friend in the meantime.

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Should you be interested in this and would like to make sure that I have the best time of my life while also suffering the most then please write me a dm and let me know your thoughts about me and my idea. Let me know if you feel like having a fucking desperate friend to spend some quality online time with.

I'd love to be persuaded to really give my whole into this...

Yours with hopeful desperation,

Matilde