Hello Dear Redditor, and possible future friend who may or may not will talk me into the idea that a woman doesn't necessary need so many clothes. That "title" of yours is obviously very much work in progress... Regardless please allow me to welcome you to a rather long but hopefully worthy read! Although I promise I'll restrain myself (pun intended) and try to be as short as possible!

( I obviously did not succeed with the restraint as you can see:D Sorry! If we end up talking you may punish me for it )

So Ladies and Gents, presumably mostly the latter...

Firstly, you may call me Matilde or Tilde... or technically I guess whatever nick name you see fit. As per the title I'm 38 years old, an age which I'd describe as "not young but not terrible". In order to take away as little of your precious time as possible I'll spare you from a long introduction. You really just need to know that I'm not necessarily to fragile princess type... by a long ass fucking mile. I'm strong and capable, a woman with her own opinions, combined with a character to speak them and a matching will and skills to make them a reality.

I can be rather scary or at least intimidating at first, so I probably get a bit less free drinks and half-inappropriate compliments on those days I decide to hit up a bar in a tastily unbuttoned shirt.

Although to be honest my kind of sexy isn't necessarily a fancy dress, and more just wearing a sports bra as a top, so that might be a reason for it.

Yet I think I'm sexy and most definitely brave enough...

There's probably no better immediate example to that, then the fact that I'm writing this post wearing the same chocolate stained sports bra as I wore yesterday and the day before, and will tomorrow as well, while at home... Yes I'm a disgusting female with "home wear" sports bra that doesn't get changed daily. And yes I did wipe my filthy fingers into my bra because I usually don't wear pants at home and thus the bra was the most fabric in my immediate vicinity when my phone rang. Whether you find this story sexy or disgusting is totally up to you, the point is that I'm not your average always perfectly dressed and hanging around in full make-up kinda chick.

Speaking of sexy... Allow me to present you semi-sexy me, a truly desperate attempt to keep up your attention and convince you that I worth this much reading!

But that's probably more than enough of me, I wanna talk about the reason behind this post as well.

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Now, I'm not a "good girl", firstly at this age I'm more of a woman anyways, but jokes aside I have my personal experiences, some which would most certainly put me to the slutty end of the spectrum.

In truth after retiring from my not so well paying job in the military and becoming a much better paid private contractor, I also heavily leaned into my desire of exploring my sexuality. Partly because I have the time now and I don't have to follow the socially accepted morality that closely anymore. And partially because I' just really fucking addicted to "excitement", not necessarily sexual, but as turns out it substitutes bloody well!

Full disclosure I've been taking on occasional jobs as well, where I'm paid to take a lot and look pretty while doing so, and I fucking love it, therefore our little Reddit thing will not be exclusive. I'm sorry but I just can't throw these experiences aside... We can talk about them if you want, but I just abandon them.

You however, will ideally be:

• My friend, someone I can talk to, even if somewhat anonymously, share things I couldn't or rather wouldn't want to with people more immediately close to me.
• A companion I can debate and relax with on occasion, someone who enjoys my company as much as I enjoy his, whether we are having a heated political debate or playing some stupid video game.
• Thirdly I also very much need you to fancy me, to think of me as a woman first and foremost, I want someone who wants to heavily oversexualize me all the way... Someone to make sure that I know that as woman I might not have the right to wear too much clothing when alone with you, I want you to flirt with me, to tease me, to take control of me while we're relaxing together.

I mean as a submissive woman I certainly cannot be allowed to have control over my sexuality, I surely cannot determine whether I get to orgasm / get to stop or just have to play and take it.

I've learned to love a lot if things wholeheartedly, including significant physical pain, there's no fulfilling than converting that in my mind into sexual pleasure. I also love the uncertainty that comes with allowing someone else to have a say in all this. And I guess I also very much enjoy some degree of humiliation, I mean why else would I undress on someone else's whim or agree to not pee and just hold until I'm finally relived by a beautiful word of permission to finally go to the bathroom. I the humiliation and excitement that comes with not being fully in control over my own body at least as much as I love the pain or the sexual pleasure.

And that is why I'm looking for You, lovely Reader, in order to take the burden of these decisions away from me, as much as you wish and can... besides being my companion and friend I also want you to be my dominant.

I'd love hearing your response if you feel like I'm pretty and you fancy me at least as much as you admire my witty mind and personality. I'd ask you to not focus on introducing yourself too deeply, and instead focus on digging into the dynamic that could be between us, as I believe that that is more important to start with than you favourite cheese... Let us see if we click and then get to know each other more deeply in process.

I mean after all I talk much more and much more easily if I'm embarrassed...

• So I suppose there are two strategies in front of you, get me drunk which has a similar effect or...
• Force me to undress and make me wet enough to die of embarrassment that I'm talking to some random dude like that... Almost naked and wet...

The choice is yours I suppose...

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Finally I just want to thank you for reading all of my rambling... As you can see I talk a lot compared to what in my experience is expected from a "submissive" woman, but luckily most nipple clamps these days are adjustable, so we can always just tighten the screw to make me focus on the more on the pain and less on the talking!

Yours sincerely but in probably way to much clothing,

Matilde