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The internet has given me sexual addictions and kinks that I never would have gotten regularly. I always wish I were born even just a few decades ago, that way I wouldn't have gotten on the internet so early in my life. I wish I didn't have unrestricted internet access when I was younger. My mother was loving, strict at times, but loving, I used the internet to escape, only now do I wish that she restricted that too. If I were born a few decades ago I would have lived a normal life, with a normal sex life, normal job, kids, who knows. I'm still successful in life, I have a great job and I have fun, but somewhere in the back of my mind those dark disgusting kinks live. They thrive and grow in the dark damp corners of my mind, itchy, slimy, growing. You wouldn't guess it by looking at me, tall, intimidating, sharp features, long sleek hair. I'm put together, and I should find people like myself attractive, a man or a woman like me, someone cool, fit, smart, successful. That's how it should be, but instead I'm doomed. Somewhere along the way I got a kink, I don't remember where it started, when I first got off to it, I don't remember any of that, this kink shows itself rarely, I get off to it, and it recedes back, it evolves, adapts, but keeps the same general shape. My kink is that I search for the fattest, slimiest, grossest men possible. Hugely fat men, folds and folds of fat covering their obese body. Cocks hidden under their sweaty layers. Men who just jerk off all night, don't shower, addicted to porn, have unwashed cocks. I hate it so much. I hide from the kink for as long as I can, but eventually it gets too heavy to hide away and I spend the night getting off to it. That's where you come in. You know my darkest secret now, something I've never told anyone in real life, I want you to further my addiction to this, to these types of men. I won't humor anything else, just this. Use reddit chat, and make it apparent that you read everything. Use Reddit Chat.

Qualities I'm looking for: Intelligence, manipulative, can gaslight, evil, well spoken.

Thank you for reading, when you message me understand that this is a kink I'm very embarrassed about, so I may avoid straight on admitting that I like it.