We have been together for about a year, we met at a party after we both moved to our new city after going to colleges in different places. It's been great and we have been almost inseparable. We know each other's friends, been to family events together. It's gotten to the point where we aren't afraid to talk about having a long term future together. As much as we know we each have a past, there hasn't

been a lot of discussion about it. We got ourselves tested and are together now, that all that matters, right?

Last weekend you went to visit your parents for a few days. They needed some help with something or other and I needed to work so I stayed home. After a few lonely beers and random Netflix that failed to catch my attention I started flipping around some of the tube sites.

Because I am a few beers in and missing you I type into the search "[your home state] amateurs." None of the thumbnails really catch my attention until almost the end of the second page of results. I see a thumbnail of a girl that looks like you, or at least some of your older pictures. "College slut's First Time on Camera."

I don't really think it is you, I mean it's catching my eye because I miss you, right? But I have to click it because I think you are the hottest woman I have been naked with and this girl looks like you and everything is perfect for a half drunk wank before bed and so...I click it.

It is you. It is your voice coming out of her mouth while she is sitting on a hotel bed, the strap of your tank top hanging off your shoulder while you tell the guy behind the camera about how exciting this is and no, you've never done anything like this before. I watch as you pull off the tank top exposing my most favorite pair of breasts in the world. I watch as his hand comes from behind the camera and touches one. And I hear him tell you how good it feels, at the same time I see your eyes close and you bite your lip - I know that look. I pause it when I see you reach for his zipper.

My stomach is doing all kinds of flips in the middle of trying not to throw up. And my cock is starting to get hard watching it. There are still 35 minutes left of the video. I know I am going to watch every second of it. I suspect I am going to enjoy it.