Did you actually think he was into you? Did it start as just another blowjob, another night of sex, maybe even just a night out?

What happened then that left you feeling ...used and dirty? ...ashamed and worthless? ...violated and ruined?

Did he bully you into it? Blunt and threatening, or the relentless pressure of a man using your own need for acceptance / love / validation to make you give him what he wants?

Or maybe he just did what he wanted and you went along with it, trying to be a good girl, trying to please, convincing yourself that if he liked this he'd also like you. Was his indifference or even disdain apparent the moment he was done? Or did it take you longer to figure it out? Maybe you were so clueless you didn't even realize until you heard how degradingly he'd described using you to his friends, or found the nasty things he'd written while sharing your pictures online.

I'm even interested in that shame you feel looking back on relationships where once maybe he really did love you, but now you think about all the things you did for him only to still end up with him not giving a shit about you.

If any of that matches something you've experienced (and I would guess more than once), send me a message and tell me a bit about it. I have stories of my own you can ask about, or we can just focus on you and what you've been through -- I'm good at listening and responding to what you've written.

And yes, some of the questions I ask will probably rub it in how lowly I think of you too, and that I'm getting off on how he used you. But after all, it's what you're there for.