A cold silence fills the room as I lie here.

The soft moonlight reflects off the skin of my stomach.

I run my fingers down, as if I could brush it off.

I stare at the ceiling with my eyes wide open.

Move my hand up and adjust my collar a little.

Sigh

I can’t sleep.

I’m being punished.

Punished for not listening to my master.

If only I had listened I wouldn’t have been in this situation

I know my master loves me, but doesn’t tolerate when I don’t listen.

I am to lie here and wait for my master to get home.

No clothes, no covers.

I am allowed to sleep.

But I can’t.

I look at the clock.

10.21 PM

Sigh

It's boring.

I run my hand down my stomach again.

No! I mustn’t! I was strictly forbidden to!

But it is so hard to resist!

And Master knows my weaknesses.

That’s why I have to wear the stainless steel plug tonight.

Because Master knows it drives me crazy.

It reminds me of the feeling when I am lying on my stomach with my master behind me.

Pushed to the ground.

Being treated the way I love

I can feel my hand between my legs.

It’s as if I’m not the one controlling it.

It is so soft, like velvet against my hand.

I cover my face with my other hand.

Only for second I moan to myself

I can feel my body heat rise as I explore myself.

A feeling I am unable to describe.

I cannot stop

I keep going – Faster – Faster

I feel the fire inside of me.

An urge to scream!

I bite my hand!

Mhm!!!

…

Gasping for air.

What have I done?!

I stare at the ceiling

The guilt is eating me from inside.

I’ve been disobedient again.

Sigh

I hear footsteps and keys rattling

Looking at the clock

00.52 AM

Did I fall asleep!?

I rush out of the bed.

FUCK

What do I do? The guilt…

I fall down on my knees in front of the bed and lower my head.

I have to confess.

The door opens.

I must confess.

I’m prepared to sleep on the floor tonight.