We all need therapy. I truly believe that. Or at least we could all use it, even if we don't need it. I don't mean that we all need to deep dive into trauma or go on drugs to re-wire our brains, but we need a chance to be truly vulnerable. To let go with someone who we feel comfortable enough to let down all barriers. Allow someone else to guide us to a better understanding of ourselves, and to learn to cope better with the stresses of life.

The struggle is, we all have different ways of tapping into that vulnerability. Some just need someone thoughtful to talk to, but others perhaps have walls up that make it hard to connect and let go in a fully platonic dynamic.

Of course, as a psychologist, this was something you were trained to ignore. You knew it was important to build rapport, but it was paramount that you never crossed the line of intimacy and sexuality directly with a patient. But, as we continued to talk, you questioned this notion more and more. You could almost feel the wall up, and your analytical side was putting it together.

The relationships (or lack there of) I had with others were always so shallow, except for those who I had at one time been intimate with. Even my best friends to this day were all women who I had originally let down my walls for, as they took off my clothes.

You were good at your job, and never lacked for confidence, but somehow you knew that this was going to be a waste of your time unless you could break down those walls the same way those other women had. Be let into my inner circle. So, you asked yourself, what was more important...abiding by some guidelines some old white men put in place to (rightfully) protect vulnerable people (women) from these old men who we all know would have become predators without this rule...or helping your patient. Besides, I was a big, burly, powerful (physically and metaphorically) white man myself. Should the rules really be used to protect me from something that could actually help?

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This is something I am so interested in exploring. Blurring or tearing apart the boundaries of a therapist, and having a woman use her sexuality to break down and in some ways take control of her patient, all in the name of vulnerability and self growth. This could go in so many directions, and I would love to have a slow build.

If you are interested in exploring, we can discuss kinks and limits, and go from there. What is most important to me though is the dynamic, and making it feel as real as possible.