I haven't cum in almost 2 weeks now...

After work each day, I've been coming home and immediately using my cock pump because I'm so damn horny. I'm really feeling the effects of not cumming...basically everything is triggering me. I'm to the point where I'm just thinking entirely with my cock. I could be in my car driving, just taking a walk, or sitting at my desk and I see something that turns me on. I've been getting so hard that it's aching and feel like if I don't just start jerking instantly, I'm going to lose my mind. It's especially bad when it happens at work since I can't exactly sneak away and play with myself. There's been a few times where I've gone to my car in the parking lot, whipped out my cock, and just fucking jerked for an hour. My boss wondered where I was...oops!

Not sure why, but every time I resist cumming and buildup a giant load, I swear my cock gets a little bit bigger than normal. It might be mostly because of how horny I am, or maybe there is something to it. I'm not sure how much longer I can last before I need to blow this load everywhere. Just last night, I woke up from a sex dream almost cumming in my sheets. I had to literally grab my cock at the base and squeeze as hard as I could to hold it in. It's been super fucking fun just teasing myself for hours at a time and then not cumming, but I think I'm at my limit.

I'd love to meet someone who could push me even further and just goon my brains out. I'm so conflicted: should I blow my load or hold it in? I can't make up my mind