For as long as I could remember, I have felt this strong attraction to older men. Where my friends have preferences for tall guys or blondes, it's age for me. 45 and up are what I consider older. Why? I could say it was the lack of an attentive father growing up, although I grew up in the church so there were father figures around. Something unrelated did happen once but I hardly think that had a impact. Anyway, growing up religious either helps you or hurts you. Staying or leaving doesn't make you a better or worse person. I guess it isn't as much about church than it is my mom; she's narcisstic and controlling. We always had to be "perfect" in church. I can't say with certainty if the church made her that way or if she was always like that because all I remember is wearing a dress every Sunday and nodding along to whatever story she made up to tell the congregation.

I'm used to the control being out of my hands. I thought I'd outgrow at some point, wrestle it back and become this imposing force... but having it in my hands doesn't feel as good as I thought it would. It's foreign and confusing. I can do it but it'd be a lie to say I don't fantasize and hope that my owner is out there. The one who will be worthy of and want to pluck my puppet strings, make me dance and in turn, be served by me. It's all about compatibly so I'm not thinking that everyone I meet will be "the one". I accept they're out there and wait patiently for the day they claim me. Until then, I go about my life. I've gotten sidetracked, let me reign it back in.

Older men, that’s always been my thing. I was very good and obedient growing up. Now? I'm a bit frustrated. I want to be scolded, I want someone to admit to that "I've been a bad girl" and not to be brushed off sexually. I'd need you to understand what I'm really saying, I've been good my whole life and I'm not being good now. I've got candy stashed in my room and I shouldn't be eating it but I am. It sounds silly but that paternal disappointment would mean a lot. I want a Daddy, this dynamic is nuanced. I think the men that get it, will, and the men that don't, won't. I hope if we get along, we could have more of a long-term conversation. I don't want this to feel awkward or you having to force yourself into a Dad role. If this doesn't call to you, that's fine. I have a distinct dynamic in mind as I've experienced it. If we can fill each other's void, mission accomplished.

Another interest I have is bimbofication but you don't have to share that interest. I lean more towards perfection than extreme surgeries. I'd also categorize it more as barbiefication, becoming a perfect version and enhancing oneself. It amazes me the lengths a woman would go through for vanity or her partner's sake. Definitely honing in more on the emotional side than the physical of that kink/lifestyle.

Hopefully, we share this fantasy and bring pleasure to each other's inbox.